A real blog post is way overdue, so here is my attempt to actually write, something I have had little motivation for lately.
So what’s been going on with me?
- I started a new semester after finishing last with decent, but worse than planned grades.
- I am now 33 weeks pregnant. Wow.
- I worked solely as a manager at BK for awhile, and now I am back to manager/crew, and am getting shit hours. Though I am okay with this, because it means I can keep working and not have to go on maternity leave.
This is about it…Honestly it is. I have been keeping up on reading blogs, you know I couldn’t quit doing that, but as far as motivation it’s just been lacking. In every aspect of life, honestly. I feel tired, all the time, and I never want to get out of bed. I force myself out of bed for school, but I have no morning routine, and I need one. If nothing else to prepare for motherhood. I have none. If I feel like showering, I do, if not I just do it when I get home. If I feel like eating breakfast, I will, if not oh well, I will pick up a candy bar from the bookstore when my stomach starts getting upset. And if I simply don’t want to crawl out of bed until time to leave, I don’t. This is not good behavior for somebody who will be a mother in less than 2 months.
However, the first step in any process is admitting that you need to change. I need to change, majorly. When I give birth I want to be able to have a ready routine, I don’t want to go crazy because I’m lost and still trying to find myself while raising Demetri to be a healthy boy. I want to get used to eating healthy for myself, so that when he begins to grow older it’s easier to get him to eat healthier with me. I don’t want to have to hide vegetables in his foods, I want him to think it’s normal to eat veggies.
Wow, when I began this post I had no motivation to write, yet now it’s all coming out, and it is a decent sized post, however I feel like I’m falling asleep, and need to get off and eat. Maybe another post later tonight, or tomorrow? Boy I hope so.
